Chapter 3: Weirdos and bitches

Hey hey hey,

 So today's post might be a bit more melodramatic than usual, which might have something to do with the fact that I literally just watched the notebook for the FIRST TIME, yes people took me this long. 😭

 Anyway, I've been starting to have cold feet, pre-uni jitters as they say.

 Up until this point I've been pretty okay, mostly excited as the getting all new shit is the fun part. But some things are starting to sink in as I'm getting more and more emails. Anyone else? I'm just getting super nervous and I feel almost like my confidence in myself has been knocked. 😬

 I'm normally quite a confident person, though this is quite a recent development in my personality.  Literally its just been this year that I've actually found some confidence and realised that I'm awesome (not in a big headed way lol) err but I mean that I actually now realise that if I want to do something, I fucking can. 
Like anything I want to do, i can freaking do it. 
Yes i know thats such a cliche and i sound like a cringe motivational video on youtube but its fucking true.
(my point is obviously serious based on the amount of times i used the word 'fuck). 💪🏼 💪🏼 💪🏼

 BASICALLY, 
I wanted to go to Uni FIT AS FUCK, you know looking damn hot and turning up to freshers having got ripped over summer. 💁👙👅
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But basically that hasn't happened, surprise surprise. I don't understand why....



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                                                          🍕 🌭 🍔 🍟 🥙 🌮 🌯 🥗

 well as per ive been a lazy fuck.

 I'm not obese but I'm not skinny. I'm womanly as they say. But it's not what I want. I legit feel that everyone else is going to turn up with these bangin' bods and I'm going to be this little dumpling (or ugly duckling rather) 🦆
Am I being ridiculous? Thats a rhetorical question, i know i am. I just need to vent to random internet people. 

I have waves of feeling like 'i love my bod, these rolls are womanly'. But if i'm honest I want to be, you know, be looking fierce. 🔥🔥

 #firstworldproblems

 I'm self centred, yep. 💁

 Seriously, I know its stupid but it really makes me nervous about going to Uni. That and the fear that i'll end up in a flat with weirdo's and bitches keeps me up at night- (watching shameless).

 Anyway, I thought I'd update you on that. Most people seem excited, desperate to escape their boring towns and parents. But I guess everyone has a panic about something. 

 I'll be fine tomorrow after I do a plank or some shit. 

 xoxoxo 

 Anon

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